How should I start? In life, things don't always turn out the way we plan. Sometimes, you have to stop worrying, wondering and doubting. Have faith that things will work out maybe not how you planned, but just how its meant to be. I do believe that the people who are meant to be in my life will always gravitate back towards me, no matter how far they wander. What has happened to us was actually beyond my imagination. Its not the kind of sadness to where I cry all the time, but more like the sadness that overwhelms my entire body, leaving my heart aching and my stomach empty. Making me feel weak and tired. Yet, I can't even sleep because the sadness is in my dreams too. Its almost a sadness I can't escape. Honestly, I've never experienced a heart-broken phase but I just did. Moving on doesn't take a day. It takes a lot of little steps to be able to break free of my broken-self. Alhamdulilah, I am getting better as each day goes by. However, its the hardest thing I could ever go through. No matter how much time has passed, it never really goes away. I may think I'm getting better, but then I get a flashback or hear a song reminds me of a memory, and it hits me all over again, all at once like a stab in the chest. Even when there are other people came along and give me chances to move on, I just don't want to because it upsets me more to move on. Overall, its not like it matters anyway. May Allah ease everything for us both at least because I know I'm not the only one who's in pain.
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