Heart Under Construction

This is the first time I'm officially saying that I'm single .. Muhammad Hazim is not my boyfriend any more and I am not his girlfriend any more .. Although , there are still a lot of people who met me and called " hi gerek hazim " .. Well , its hard to tell everyone .. Let's begin with the story .. I've waited for him since October 2011 , but he is not ready to put himself in any relationship .. So one day , I decided to leave .. I am not that strong to wait .. There are time when I give up on him .. But then he ask me to be his girlfriend .. I felt that he ask that question just because he don't want to lose me .. But I just go on with our relationship .. What I thought is really true .. After 3 weeks 2 days , he tell me that he just love me as friend but in the same time he don't want to lose me .. Its not our separation make me hurt this much but what he said to me .. The way he say he just love me as friend and so on .. I still keep the record of our conversation .. Why did you ask me to be your girlfriend when you just love me as friend ? I admit I still love you but seriously that feelings slowly fade and I know it will gone one day .. I am the one who break us up .. That's the hardest thing to do but what for I keep this relationship going on when I mean nothing to you .. Someday I will met someone who can replaced you .. :)